Lately,I have been waking up late! I wake up at my usual time of 4:30am . My body clock has been tuned to that for a very long time. But then,I just turn again and sleep off, Only to wake up at 6:00 or thereabout 😦 with the children back to school this week ,It is no longer funny!

Today, I woke up late feeling all grumpy. I have decide to spend the whole of January to seek God in fasting and praying , sincerely speaking it has been a struggle.it seem as if I am just on hunger strike, because I haven’t been able to get myself to that place of solitude in my heart. Am I missing somethinreally don’t like this emptiness I feel inside right now, my heart is crying,’Lord I need you’, I am desperate for you! yet I can’t seem to get myself to read the scriptures or even pray like I think I should. Am I missing something?

I long for deep intimacy with the Father,I look to feel his warm embrace, I want to hear him speak to me,but I am struggling to spend few minutes or even an hour in His face. Please help me! Am I missing something? 

Knowing God Intimately  to be as close to Him as I want to be, yet I can’t, Am I missing something?

Does this look like you? Yes you!  because it sure does look like me. I am not ready to pretend and I won’t as  I think to myself again, “Am I missing something!!

There is a void, that cannot be filled by marriage,motherhood,or accomplishment or even church or spiritual activities,in the real sense of the matter,that’s what they are are accomplishments,activities!

I have been a christian for several years,I think I am just getting to understand that true inner satisfaction is the most important thing in life,and it can only be fully enjoyed through the abiding presence of God.It is not in the trophies or awards, accolades, or in the accumulations of wealth.

The anointed songwriter who later became king had this to say in Psalm 27:4

One thing have I asked of the Lord,that will I seek,inquire for, and {insistently}require: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord{in His presence}all the days of my life,and to gaze upon the beauty{the sweet attractiveness and the delightful loveliness} of the Lord and to meditate,consider,and inquire in His temple. 

David accomplished many feat and enjoyed many opportunities to find self worth and inner satisfaction,his eventual fame and wealth all that most of us today might think will bring that inner satisfaction,but that was not the case.

David’s pursuit of God,was still very much vibrant after all is extraordinary accomplishment, He felt the need to know God more…intimately.

I also yearn for this intimacy with God, I am desperate for that one thing that is needful, that I broke down in desperation, crying out to God like David, In the words of this song from Shana Wilson;

Give me you, everything else can wait

Give me you,I hope I’m not too late

             Lord give me you, 

Lord give me you.

It’s me O Lord,I’m on my knees

Crying out to you.

Many of us want guidance from God,but we don’t crave or pursue Him,or lay aside other things in order to go get a word from God.

The question really is ,’Can everything else wait’? Am I willing and ready to make all else wait, for me to seek him with all of my being? Can I suspend the bickering,turn down all the distractions,everything seeking and wanting my attention, To give full attention to the ONE who matters most. Am I missing something?

Once is never enough, one-time encounters with God are never  going to make us spiritually contented, No!

Time with God is a necessity,and we may have to deal sternly with the flesh to resist the spirit of passivity that tries to keep us from growing in intimacy God.

Every relationship requires commitment, No matter how many times I cry out in desperation, if I don’t make an intentional commitment to pursue God and seek him with all my heart; Nothing will happen.

Am I missing something? It is very obvious that I am missing something(s).

*I am as close to God as I want to be

*I decide what depth of His presence I want to experience by my obedience to His instructions in my life.

*If I am committed to this relationship with my Father,the onus is on me to make the time for intimacy with him no matter how busy my world may seem. He has to take first place in my heart and my life. Not just by saying alone ,my actions too!

*I must be willing to pay the price to create balance in my life. God designed us with body,soul and spirit and he expects us to take care of each area of our being.

*If I look at my time with God as the opportunity to recharge,It will be important for me to make sure that I make out time to do it, and not put it off to do something else, when trivial set in.

The Martha ministry of our lives is expedient no doubt, but the utmost Important thing is that One thing that is needful; Seeking Him at all times. If we spend more priority time with GOD,we wouldn’t have so many emergencies that rob us of our time……. Now that is what I am missing

Quality Priority time with God!

Listen to this  music  here . Give me you-Shana Wilson.