2017, Will forever be an unforgettable year of twists and turns for me. I don’t think I will ever forget that year, not in a hurry anyway.
Towards the year-end 2016, I embark on certain journeys to becoming a better version of me. I enrolled in Leadership Institutes, Purpose academy here and there.to crown that year up, I signed up for a goal setting master class with one of Nigeria’s finest Life coaches.
By the time I was done with the Masterclass, oh my, This girl was ready to take 2017 by storm. I had just been thoroughly tutored on how to maximize every 12 areas of my life for peak performance, talked about being turbocharged. Yes, I was ready…
As we entered into the new year, I started off with a strategy session I had planned to do with a few of my friends in attendance, my living room was filled with people who were professional, business owners in their own right. we had a long session and it was a success from the feedback I got afterwards. One mission accomplished and ticked off, it looks like it going to be a great year after all.
I had also started writing a new book, with the tasks of writing at least 500 words per day, things were really looking up. with regards to my music ministry assignment, I had the privileged opportunity to minister in songs to inmates at the maximum prison in Lagos, that was a surreal experience for me, as I saw men and women who were incarcerated, without any hope of amnesty, worship God with their whole heart as if there was no tomorrow.
Things were happening according to plan, except for the fact that I began to notice an unusualness in my body physiology, to the extent that one afternoon, my appetite took a strange turn, that was when I knew something wasn’t right. For the life of me, I didn’t pay any attention to my menstrual circle because it wasn’t always a regular flow and because I was almost nearing the menopausal stage I couldn’t be bothered so to speak.
Little did I know what I was in for. Still feeling that unusualness in my body, I decided to take a pregnancy test just to be sure it wasn’t what I was not thinking. Lo and behold the test came positive. I WAS PREGNANT!!
No way! How come? This must be a mistake! Not me? LORD why me? This is not what I planned for? at what age? after how many years? This must be some kind of joke. As the many questions reeled out in my mind, it seems my whole world of excitement and enthusiasm for the new year just collapsed.
Instead of being excited about the pregnancy, the feeling of sadness and disappointment overwhelmed me. I wasn’t expecting this kind of news in my wildest imagination. Almost immediately all the drive to tick off my pursuit for the year was replaced by hormonal imbalance.
Many are the plans in a man’s heart but it is the plan of God that will prevail.
This scripture was my number one lesson. I had planned so many things that I would do by God’s grace, little did I know that God had a major plan for me. Despite the fact that I went into depression for months, He never failed to always reassure me, that everything was going to be alright. In case you are wondering why I was sad and depressed over something that I should be jumping for Joy. Well! I didn’t ask to be pregnant, as far as I was concerned I had been done with making babies for over 12 years now.
Another Scripture also in Proverbs, say;
Do not boast about tomorrow, for you do not know what a day may bring forth.
It’s okay to make plans, don’t get me wrong because we cant just go about living life without focus, but at the same time we should bear in mind that life’s unpredictable and we shouldn’t presume on it, on the other hand, there is no need to worry because we know that God is in control. I couldn’t realise that sooner, I was blinded by the fact that all my plans and desires had been ruined by my new status. I couldn’t fathom in my myopic mind that God had a better idea for my 2017 than I could imagine.
TO BE CONTINUED!